Hair Is Just Hair

 A couple weeks ago I decided to take the plunge! I went after the hair cut that I had been wanting to get for  a while! Now, I know that might sound little but for me this is huge because I tend to second guess myself. And  I tend to  let what other people think of me get to me ! Especially after this new adjustment where I have always had some what long hair my heart sunk with anticipation over the decision I made! I knew in my heart I was proud and I knew at the same time I didn't want to look awkward!

Now, I know I may sound dramatic but I am sharing this part of my life because I have struggled especially in my teen years wanting to feel beautiful! I mean I knew growing up that God saw me as beautiful but in my heart I found it hard to see. And hasn't been till my 20's that I started marching on a more confident beat! I'm telling you this is huge because usually I ask my friends what they think but now I'm really learning to own lately what I think and to know God made April unique as her own finger print!  And that's a huge deal! I won't even lie to you it's still hard looking in the mirror with the new cut but if any thing I'm learning to be grateful for the hair that I have and to remember that  beauty is skin deep! So, I close off saying to you my sisters, " What are some things you would do if you were bold?"

Embrace The Awkward

 Over the past couple of months and even during some of my college career I have had  yearning to write  and I have wrote on various topics but lately I am realizing I have a burning passion within me to encourage  women in society that we are more! For I know that this is my struggle as many. And it has been mine since I can remember dealing with my middle school years of discovery! I can't tell you how many times I would change something about my outward appearance  and even as I turn 25 this month I know I'm still at the edge my seat  embracing me but I have come to this reality that awkward is the new normal.
 If we were to all sit in a circle face to face with other women I believe we would  realize some truths if we took the risk but unfortunately shame has blocked us. Many of us have hid ourselves well and I am one to confess.
I am your average girl who realized her life was taking another curve as soon as she realize her teen years were coming. I am the girl in the 5th grade who put on cherry lip stick because she wanted to feel pretty. I am the girl who thought blond high lights were cool and then bridged over to the liquid eyeliner in the 8th grade. And if I could of been a voice to myself I would whisper back: " You don't  need  make up or to change who you are to feel beautiful because to Christ you are enough! I am also the girl who said she would never date because she saw all the wounds of the other teen girls around her but I confess I fell for the boy. Although we  were no where physical I emotionally gave myself away.
 I became blind to making Jesus my lover and not the boy. I became swayed by his words and not swayed by the words of God. I was in love with the idea of how the boy felt for me. And I wish I had been more in love with how God felt for me! And now I sit in the seat of a 25  year old soon to be realizing that people will always have their opinions but none will know me so deeply like God will! So, I challenge us to this platform of daring to be bold! I also look forward to sharing more of my God given story because I know if He spent the time He did on me that He longs to spend it on you! No, I'm not put together but in Him I am whole! He is my Creator and I am His new Creation.